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always the dreamer, never the

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i  still wake up dreaming of you some nights
for a moment, i expect to feel your breath upon my neck -
our hearts beating like the slightly off tempo songs we used to write

but there’s no breeze upon my neck and the only sound
i hear is the thud thud thud of my heart struggling to beat for one
- sometimes i have to remind myself that we’re better off apart

‘better off apart’ doesn’t have to mean i’m better off alone though
does it? because i’m not, no matter how hard i try, nor which way i look
and, lets face it, i never was good at pretending with us -

like sometimes, i close my eyes and try to pretend my pillow’s you
but i can’t make my pillow hold me, not like you used too
and even a hot water bottle doesn’t warm me like your words did

at lunch i have to remind myself to stop, just for a second
and remember that you always liked me to eat a proper meal
not one of those rushedsaladatmydesk lunches i’m used too
                       (you really did teach me a lot)

you see, before i met you i’d lost myself and i hadn’t even notice
when you came along and burst the bubble i’d been hiding in
i felt like i’d lost everything and managed to blame it all on you

but you forced me to open my eyes - made me start afresh
i might not have gone about it the best way, but i did try my love
i always said the wrong thing, especially when i tried to word it right,

like

when i said ‘i have to be believe in myself before i can ever believe in us’
i wanted you to say you believed in me enough for the both of us
and that somehow you’d show me how to see what you see

instead, you just told me i was right and that was that
     it’s amazing how quickly a world can fall in
titles supposed to be 'always the dreamer, never the dream'
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loopy-lexy's avatar
i think the title of this is absolutely amazing, and the rest is brilliant too =]