Well i arrived yesterday morning- just had my second evening out thing -

i feel really pathetic. no other way of putting it. i'm ill - had a reallly bad cold/flu thing before i started n now i have no voice at all. its not fun.
I've made friends with everyone in my kitchen etc, but i really cant dealwith it - i hate having to meet people - i get shy n overcompensate by being really loud n making jokes. But everyone is stll out - i came back because i saw my ex boyfriend and just wanted to be sick. Now i'm a bitof a mess - one of the guys in my kitchen keeps being a complete dick to me. and me being me i let it upset me...


uni isnt for me - that's not be over-reacting or judging to quickly - I already thougtht this before i came. now i just know it. and i dont know what to do. I don't want to stay - I wont do anything stupid like drop out already - but its not for me and i don't know what to do about it.


E....

Well I am officially single again, so I should have more time to write!

I've got about two weeks till I go to university so most of my time at the moment is spent organising various things for it ^^, hence I havent had much time to write recently.

How are you??

E xxx

Esme is finally back home after what felt like too long away ><

Just found out my dad is having yet ANOTHER kid - Him and my step mum have alrady had three.... o.0...

I dunno how i feel about it all - he's already told me it means he cant help me out with uni fees or anything like he was planning. Also it means im gunna have another sibling who i wont know very well and who will see me maybe twice a year at most..... I felt guilty enough leaving today with the my brothers and sister crying about it, i dont think i could handle ANOTHER. ><

Well i had a good time away other than that - saw my cousins etc and had a laugh.

How is everyone? I'm trying to wade through the copious amounts of deviations i has to read

xxxx