Well i arrived yesterday morning- just had my second evening out thing -

i feel really pathetic. no other way of putting it. i'm ill - had a reallly bad cold/flu thing before i started n now i have no voice at all. its not fun.
I've made friends with everyone in my kitchen etc, but i really cant dealwith it - i hate having to meet people - i get shy n overcompensate by being really loud n making jokes. But everyone is stll out - i came back because i saw my ex boyfriend and just wanted to be sick. Now i'm a bitof a mess - one of the guys in my kitchen keeps being a complete dick to me. and me being me i let it upset me...


uni isnt for me - that's not be over-reacting or judging to quickly - I already thougtht this before i came. now i just know it. and i dont know what to do. I don't want to stay - I wont do anything stupid like drop out already - but its not for me and i don't know what to do about it.


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